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1. |
Alone
02:43
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[Verse]
Time stands still
What an I still doing here?
Doing the same things over again
Hoping that something has changed
Too afraid to do something too strange
I just wanna go back home
Back to where I belong
Back to my comfort zone
[Chorus]
And the lights are turned off again
But I'm still alive in my bed
And sometimes I think I'd rather be dead
But then I take my words back
But it's only a matter of time
So why won't it pass me by?
Guess everything seems to be slower than what is
When you're not enjoying your life
[Outro]
It's only a matter of time
So why won't it pass me by?
Guеss I'll be alone for the rеst of my life
Yeah I'll be alone for the rest of my life
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2. |
at midnight
03:11
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[Verse 1]
At midnight
When I'm half-asleep
I'll turn the lights off and on again
'Till I'm finally fully alive
Until I dread the feeling of myself
[Verse 2]
At midnight
The smallest thoughts
Can burn a fire that keeps me awake
And letting go becomes like a stranger
Obsessions become like a moth to a flame
[Chorus]
And the bed doesn't feel like a bed anymore
I guess the comfort was lost long ago
Since when did my thoughts become my only lover?
I guess it wasn't even fair at all
[Verse 3]
Sometime past midnight
When I'm still alive
I'll hate thе feeling of feeling myself
But I'll come back clearеr than ever before
Just to think about the unthinkable
[Chorus]
And the bed still doesn't feel like a bed
And it feels like the room is caving in
But at this point I'd rather be homeless or dead
So tell me, where's that zone the you promised?
And closing my eyes just doesn't feel right
And waking up seems like the better option
But at this point I'd rather be homeless or dead
So, where's that zone that you promised?
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3. |
Lover
01:49
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[Verse]
Even after all these years
You're still the same
I think the color of the leaves haven't changed
Did you turn them over
Like you said you would?
But those leaves aren't new, aren't they?
[Chorus]
The wind blows the same
And you're still deranged
So did you leave your promise behind?
[Bridge]
And I died more than twice for you
Did you even care more more than oncе for me?
Just to be your lover
And to keep my obsеssions
Hidden deep beneath these barks
[Chorus]
But you're still the same
And you still haven't changed
So why'd you leave your promise behind?
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4. |
Closet door
02:23
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[Verse 1]
Caring too much if the grass is greener
Is it really better on the other side?
A green-eyed monster, hoping it's my lover
Can’t even die without dying twice
[Verse 2]
And I hate that I'm too preoccupied
And I can't even lie without being honest
And who’s gonna forgive and who's gonna forget?
'Cause I'm sure as hell that I'm doing neither
[Chorus]
Closing the door that I left open
Was it too bad that I couldn't think straight?
Keep 'em suppressed, and try to leave it behind
But when it comes back
You're still depressed
[Verse 3]
Giving up was always the option
Stabbed in the back for just being honest
And who’s gonna forgive and who’s gonna forget?
'Cause I’m sure as hell that I'm doing neither
[Chorus]
Closing the door that I left open
Was it too bad that I couldn't think straight?
Keep 'em suppressed, and try to leave it behind
But when it comes back
You’re still depressed
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5. |
Immature thoughts
02:32
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[Verse]
So fucking jealous of him
'Cause he has more friends than me
Probably gets more love than me
On average while I'm crying in my bed
[Chorus]
Kind of hope that he dies
But he doesn't deserve it
Maybe in time
I'll be just like him
Hate how I see him everyday
Breaking my ego and my heart
And I hate that he's nice
And I hope it's for show
But maybe he's nice
Then I'll hate myself morе
Just so fucking obsessed
Should probably get a thеrapist instead
[Post-Chorus]
Can't even lie without being honest
Can't even die without dying twice
And who's gonna forgive and who's gonna forget?
'Cause I'm sure as hell that I'm doing neither
[Outro]
It's all your fault
It's all your fault
It's all your fault
It's all your fault
Yeah yeah
Yeah yeah yeah
Yeah yeah yeah
Yeah yeah yeah yeah
Yeah yeah yeah yeah
It's all your fault
It's all your fault
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6. |
Lost at sea
02:44
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[Verse]
I've been living in the ocean my entire life
And even after all these years
I still can't let myself drown
'Cause my body won't give out
[Pre-Chorus]
And I've been longing
To reach ship or land
Waiting for someone to come
But no one truly comes
And I'll always see
A shadow of company in the mist
But never the real thing
[Chorus]
So I hope that I starve to death first
Or die of thirst
Or freeze inside
Until my organs give out
Until I die, until I die
Secretly hoping for something else
But I bet nothing really happens
And now I'm still alone with my death wish
With a feeling worse than dying and hell
[Bridge]
Do you think that you can still make it?
Oh, I was still talking to myself
Even the animals here are dead
And the world's just an empty, barren ocean
[Chorus]
So I hope that I starve to death first
Or die of thirst
Or freeze inside
Until my organs give out
Until I die, until I die
Secretly hoping for another solution
Since no one's coming to save me
So I'll whisper to my death wish
To make haste and come naturally
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7. |
at 17, still hoping
02:45
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[Verse 1]
Waiting for death
Just to be with the stars
Seems too selfish after all
When you've truly noticed
That maybe life's a gift worth living for
[Verse 2]
And 17 years
Passed by so fast
And I barely remember all the things in the past
Except for the bad ones
They still come creeping behind these doors
[Chorus]
But I'm still hoping
Even after all the bad things that happened
That I'll be alive hell after hell
I think I deserve it
To walk on air
Instead of barely breathing
In these waters
In these waters
[Outro]
Don't wanna be lost at sea anymore
No I don't wanna die anymore
Don't wanna be lost at sea anymore
No I don't wanna die anymore
No I don't wanna die anymore
No I don't wanna die anymore
No I don't wanna lie anymore
No I don't wanna lie anymore
No I don't wanna die anymore
No I don't wanna lie anymore
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8. |
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[Verse 1]
So I heard
That you're going through
Some hard stuff right now
And I want to wish you all the best
But I want to wish you more than that
So I hope that you get through
And I hope that you're alright
And I hope the pain that you've fought starts to die
[Pre-Chorus]
And I know that it's hard
To be happy all the time
And I know that it's not easy
To pretend that you're just fine
But I hope that you know
That it's not your fault at all
So don't blame yourself for that
[Chorus]
And when life starts to grey
I hope that it's gonna be okay
And those bad feelings
Will start to fade
And as time passes by
And the tears start to dry
I just hope that you'll be alright
[Verse 2]
And I know
That you've been struggling
With your mental health
So I hope that you rеmember
To take carе of yourself
And be kind to other people
And be thankful for what you have
'Cause you never know how long it's gonna last
[Pre-Chorus]
And I know that it's hard
To be happy all the time
And I know that it's not easy
To pretend that you're just fine
But I hope that you know
That it's not your fault at all
So please, don't blame yourself for that
[Chorus]
And when life starts to grey
I hope that it's gonna be okay
And those bad feelings
Will start to fade
And as time passes by
And the tears start to dry
I just hope that you'll be alright
I just hope that you'll be alright
[Outro]
I just hope that you'll be alright
But I know that you'll be alright
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9. |
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[Verse 1]
When it all seems the same
Take the time to find your way
And when it all comes down
To the road that you take
Take whatever road you make
[Verse 2]
When it all seems to ache
Take the time to catch a break
And when you can't sleep at night
And if you start to cry
I’ll be there crying by your side
[Chorus]
When the lights burn out
And the sounds of the streets peter out
I just hope you'll be alive
And I'll hope that you’re alright
And I know I'll be there
Crying by your side
[Chorus]
When the lights burn out
And thе sounds of the streets peter out
I just hopе you'll be alright
Even if you're in the afterlife
And I'll be there
Crying by your side
And I'll be there
Crying by your side
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10. |
Honest lie (extra stuff)
01:47
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[Verse 1]
"As straight as a line", he said
Then met a guy
Who bent his line
But nobody knew
'Cause they all thought the same
But had his truth become a lie?
[Verse 2]
He closed the door
That he had left open
Was it too bad
That he couldn't think straight?
Thought he was being overly sincere
Didn't know that time would leave a mark in his back
[Chorus]
Punished for being himself too early
Punished for being himself too late
A sacrifice but he's the only loser
Can't evеn die without dying twice
Punished for bеing himself too early
Was it too bad that he couldn't think straight?
Punished for being himself too late
And so his truth became a lie
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11. |
Blame (extra stuff)
02:31
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[Chorus]
And I never liked the way it was
If you never cried would it still be the same?
Manipulating through your tears
Now both of us are left deranged
[Verse]
Did you ever wear your heart on your sleeve?
Or maybe your sleeve was on someone else?
And I don't believe in myself anymore
And I still don't know if it's my fault or yours
[Chorus]
I don't think you liked the way it was
But if I ever cried would it still be the same?
Can't tell you if it's real or fake
But who's gonna be the one who's taking the blame?
[Verse]
Did you ever wear your heart on your sleeve?
Or maybe your sleeve was on someone else?
And I don't believe in myself anymore
And I still don't know if it's my fault or yours
[Chorus]
I don't think you liked the way it was
But if I ever cried would it still be the same?
Can't tell you if it's real or fake
But who's gonna be the one who's taking the blame?
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Zi
Hey it's Zi! I'm currently 19.
So far, I've been writing songs about things I have
experienced in life. Writing about my problems, and stuff that I've struggled with. It's been a great journey, and I've always wanted to tell my story through songs, so I hope you guys enjoy it, even though it may not be of the best quality. If you have the time, take a listen. Thanks!
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